This is my new puppy. Her name is Sookie, like from 

True Blood. She's a doll. 

Things are really rough right now. But I keep trying to tell myself everything is going to be okay, even though it doesn't feel like it.

The past few days have been the worst of my life. The one guy I loved more than anything in the world committed suicide, and I'm devastated, and have no idea what to do with myself anymore.

My ex boyfriend killed himself yesterday around 5 or so. I can honestly say I've never loved someone as much as I love him. In the end things were really bad with us, and we would fight all the time but I think he was trying to push me away, so that when he did it, it wouldn't hurt so much for me. Like, it was his way of protecting me. I'm completely devestated and I'm not sure how I'm supposed to feel. He was technically my ex after all, but I think a lot of the issue, now looking back, was that he had made up his mind. And now everyone who loves him is left to deal with the consequences.

I'm watching American Idol for the first time since Kelly Clarkson won. Stars on the boobs, really? WTF?

i just got the iPad keyboard, and I absolutely love it. Makes things on here so much easier. Oh, and I got "Easy A", which is awesome. Lol. Love this movie sooo much.

I just watched Now & The. Completely forgot how muc I love that movie and Christina Ricci in it. Definitely one of those must see 90's films.

My favorite Golden Globes outfits of the night: Anne Hathaway in Armani, January Jones in Versace, and Lea Michele in Oscar de la Renta. :)

"It seems that everything this year was three dimensional. Except the characters in ‘The Tourist.’…I feel bad about that joke. I didn't even see ‘The Tourist.’ Who did?”

--- Host Ricky Gervais opens the 2011 Golden Globe Awards

The Golden Globes this year are making me so happy. 

I feel so crappy today. Not going to go out like I was supposed to because my body decided to give me a big bad fibro flare up today. So, that means I will be sitting at home watching the critics choice awards (I was too busy to watch earlier in the week) and misfits, if I can figure out the whole HDMI thing. Fun fun fun.

I feel like such an idiot. I have 13 things I need to update on windows, and I ignored it so many times that now I can't update any of them, and so I can't download Windows Movie Maker, and it's making me really sad right now. So, now I don't know what to do.

I slept in until about half an hour before I had to get out of the door this morning, so i didn't really have a lot of time to put anything fantastic together. So, I basically just pulled some neutrals and threw on a pair of heels and was ready to go. So, this is what I came up with. I am so in love with that bag. I never thought I'd buy anything labeled "Jessica Simpson", but you would've never known if I didn't tell you. Oh, and that headband. The beading on it is fantastic. Definitely a new favorite accessory. 

It really bothers me when people who choose to smoke complain about not being able to smoke in restaurants, and then when you bring up the fact that you don't particularly want your risk of cancer to increase due to smoke inhalation, they freak out and tell you that won't happen. WTF? Alright, end rant. Other than that dinner was awesome. Went to Red Lobster.

Spending the day visiting family, and hopefully going to Macy's at some point. I need some more foundation. I've been using Neutregena. Which is awesome but I went through it really fast. So yeah. We'll see.

I drew this when I was at Walter Reed the other day, on my iPad. Very surprised it turned out halfway decent.

Here's some pictures of my lovely headband find today. 

It reminds me of the one Effy wears in Skins Gen 2 during 

Thomas' party scene at the club. Needless to say it made 

me very, very happy. (: 

I went shopping today and got some pretty great stuff. Three headbands from Charlotte Russe, a Jessica Simpson bag, a belt, a sweater and a top from 21 Forever, and a laptop bag (also from 21 Forever? I was shocked). Oh, and a bunch of earrings. Lol. It was a productive day.

I really need to get my sleep together. I say I'm going to go to bed at 12. Ha, it's 2:46. Jokes on me I guess. And tomorrow I know I'm going to wake up and feel really horrible.

Why do first post always have to be so awkward? Ughh. Well, I actually had a blog on here like two years ago, and then I switched to tumblr. But, My tumblr has turned into a crazy picspam site, which is fun, but sometimes I like to write, and talk about my day, and just life in general, you know? So, that's what I plan on doing here. There will be pictures sometimes, and video's even, since I just got a new flip cam and I'm really obsessed with it. So yeah, that's all for now until I figure this thing out.