Today the plan is to stay in bed, and not talk to anyone. My heart hurts, and I just have no desire to feel anymore pain. I'm so sick of everything being messed up. My life is ridiculous, and I don't understand why I have to be the one of the ones to suffer. I just don't get it. And I'm just so close to like, really self destructive tendencies and it's bad. Really bad. And I just don't even know what to do anymore.